For the first few grades in school everyone I met simply called me a tomboy. The worst part about school was when we got separated into boys and girls for various reasons. Unfortunately, I would be amongst the girls. Whenever I was separated with the girls all I could do was daydream about being on the boys' side. Sometimes my jealousy of the boys took over my thoughts and I HATED THEM! WHY WERE THEY SO LUCKY TO BE BOYS!
Whenever my parents took me out of the house, I stared at other boys and their families. I could only dream of what it would be like to be called "son" or "brother" or "he" or "him".
I remember my mom and dad taking me to buy a new outfit for school before I started sixth grade. That year they let me choose for myself and I picked an awesome blue sweatshirt with matching sweatpants. To say I was extremely excited to begin the school year in those clothes would be an understatement. It never crossed my mind that I would have problems because I was wearing boys' clothes and had a short haircut and was starting a new school . . .
2 comments:
hey dude
i can relate to what you are saying here. i still havent got over my jealousy of bio guys but it has lessened.
i dont know if im going to transition or not because it seems like a huge step and at 18, i dont know if im ready but if i could leave this life and be re-born a dude tomorrow id do it. because i know i shouldnt have been born female.
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